Both of the people I know who killed themselves did it in November. Tonight is the sixth anniversary of my cousin's suicide.
I feel like it's hitting me harder than I remember it doing in years past...
My friend Kate who is adopting an older kid tells me that they warn you that your kid may "act out" on anniversaries of significant/bad things, without even knowing it.
Yup, it feels sorta like that, except I'm not really acting out, more folding up.
God, it sucks.