Liz just said that in a comment below on the "Fire" post.
I guess that's it, and I want the growth that comes afterwads, but not the hellish time.
I resist so hard, and I don't even know how to stop resisting. It's like all those muscles have been frozen in place for a long, long time.
And, what if you're broken open and all that happens is that everything falls apart? What if the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train?